I want this bag...but I am too cheap :(

今天是星期五！二0一十一年十一月十八號。我有十九歲。我是大學生。我最喜歡吃東西！我爸爸是台北也日本人。我媽媽是巴西和雅達利人。我今天沒有事。我想回家，因為我不喜歡住在這裡！因為我越來越吃東西，越來越胖。我的肚子很大，我臉很胖。

안녕!!!

I sometimes have nothing better to do. I am easily distracted, it's kind of annoying. I think it's kind of funny that the human body is made to automatically run the laziest way possible! Would you believe that ? I think it's kind of interesting, by nature we are LAZY. I guess that is something we learn to change as we get older? Who knows. I'm seriously wondering what the hell I'm doing in college. It's not like I see myself talking to any of these people once I get out of here. I mean to be honest, it almost feels like HS is where the friends are made. Elementary school, is kind of the place where you don't have the capacity to really think or even really care for that matter about who you talk to. It's kind of this lull and we just learn about the world and discover things. You know the saying taking baby steps, hehe. 

Junior High School, I feel during that time we dip our feet in drama and stupid stuff and we gradually move out of it because we get bored. High school is kind of the same stuff, except some people either get stuck in it forever and others out grow it...well more than that but I'm slowly growing more and more tired with every word I write.

Lately I've been eating a lot of junk food, and as much as I know it's bad I can't help myself. I have junk food in my room, it's easily accessible especially living on a college campus. I just can't help myself. However, I have noticed that as a way to distract myself from things, I will indulge in FOOD! Growing up, I didn't really care. I mean I even gave up eating meat for goodness sakes. I did notice that I did eat more and randomly because my mom didn't really cater to my non-meat-eating habits. Now though, I still don't eat the meats but I do eat a lot more. The exercise that was a constant in my life seems to be dwindling. I feel like I'm getting older and fatter =( Not the ideal situation...for anyone...I seriously need to stop but everytime I try, I just push myself too hard and give up.

Self-disciple is really hard. I have a lot of respect for people that can do it because I sure as hell am struggling with it. My living conditions, ha...I know that as much as I thought 'I made a friend.' it's not how I see it, it's actually kind of funny, I feel like I''m living with three little kids. I'm in summer camp all over again. I mean I just don't even bother with shit because have you ever tried talking to a little kid. They don't really talk to you, they kind of change the subject and talk about whats going on in their heads. Kind of ADD but thinking is a kind of un-fluid motion of inconsistencies. 

Something I really don't like is people looking over me, when I was younger, my mom ALWAYS did that to me. I guess now she was just curious about me. However, when people my age are looking over my shoulder checking out what I'm doing really dude? I'm not doing anything cooler than you are or even interesting for that matter.

I've really missed this font, I remember I used to type all entries with this. Now though eh, I don't really care. A lot of things I have lost interest in. Throughout my life, I feel like I pick things up, master it or at least to the best of my ability I will do it for a period and eventually just lose interest. After hearing a lecture about how evolutionary thinking is the way to go, I feel like what I do kind of has a reason! Or at least I could use that as my excuse for why I give things up. But in reality that's not true. I think my passion to learn KOREAN has not ended, it's just that binghamton's KOREAN DEPARTMENT SUCKS! It's so bad that I can't even, I don't have words. I actually think it's funny that this professor who I met is probably the husband of my ex-korean teacher. She was really cute and seemed fun, but I think I would have shit my pants being in her class especially since I forgot most of my vocabulary and that's probably one of the most important parts of learning a new language. The vocabulary and ESPECIALLY VERBS! Without a verb you can't even form a sentence. 

I think that's so amazing that with just a verb and the MINIMAL OF VOCABULARY you could get by...maybe...I think for sure, I'm going to have crazy culture shock! I'm excited though to have some nice adventures. The first semester of my SOPHOMORE year is practically over. I can't even believe it, at the same time its the reality of it. that totally didn't make sense. 

I use a lot of qualifiers and I need to stop that. DAYM! I have one paper (10-15pgs), one argument mapping, two astronomy exams, two chinese exams and I'm done! :) I'm so excited for winter break! I will be in my home, even though it doesn't feel like my home. It's an odd feeling.

Unfortunately, I have been thinking not a lot. Well I'm thinking every second so I can't say that. I have been thinking. Oh, I'm so mysterious. This is probably an average conversation that goes on in my head with myself everyday. I can't even imagine being able to hear other people's thoughts. That would be cool and strange all in one. I kind of miss blogging. My past time. UGH THE QUALIFIER! I MISS BLOGGING. I do have time and I will incorporate it into my schedule. The course of winter break, I will post everyday one entry so my brain doesn't rot. I'm going to take home with me, every single copy of the NYTimes that I got at this lousy school for free. I'm going to read every article in it just for fun. Not during winter break but, during the thanksgiving break. I am declaring now, my abstaining from the computer the whole time there.

I will spend time with friends, family and the elders. It's funny because it literally is only four days? About three days if I completely cut out travel time. I'm glad I have two siblings and one male and one female, too bad there isn't a third sex. I mean there is the mix of both but that doesn't really count. I wonder what a twin feels like. I know there is probably a lot of people who just hate it because it's an exact copy of themselves. I think it would be cool, instead of looking in the mirror I would call her and annoy the SHIT out of her :) I can't even imagine the name she would have. I think this is more than enough even though I haven't recapped at all.

I enjoy looking back at these and remembering the good and bad times~
As odd as that may be and I really want to watch a KOREAN HORROR :)
Maybe tomorrow night, a date with memories of murder <3 

I'm obsessed with Korean Dramas, holy moley!!

I don't know why they're so good. But I think that one of the main reasons why I love series now is because it takes my mind off things. You know when you get so sucked into something that you forget that you're not in it? I hate when it ends the most, because it feels like my life has ended. Just kidding, haha because obviously I'm still living. Man, I just wish I brought better books with me to read. I regret bringing this one because it's SO LONG and I don't get half the references because I'm not really all that interested in Japan. Not that the Japanese are bad, just don't spark anything in me.

But anyways today is the anniversary of my 할아버지's death. That's weird to think that it's been 15 years and it's really weird to think that as I get older, I learn more and more about my family. I think it's kind of cool though the story behind it all. Keke, however how everything turned out probably was Destiny~ 

hehe